From a very young age I have questioned many things like; Why am I here? What is the purpose of my life? Why are there so many struggles to get over? From this curiousity I found myself wanting to know all the answers to these questions but never knew where to start, but I knew there was more to life than just the physical, and that’s how I discovered spirituality.
Being a teenager was tough for me, I had been coping with a lot of grief, health issues and bullying. I became a shell of myself and was looking for an outlet to get me out of the hurt and pain I was feeling. I looked online for ways to help calm and release some of these low vibrational energies holistically and came across crystals.
I became fascinated with the different colours, sizes and healing properties each one had. Making a list of all the ones I felt would help me, I went to a metaphysical store and bought them. As soon as I went into the store, I felt a vibrational change in how I was feeling. A calmness washed over me and I felt grounded.
With the crystals I bought I created various healing crystal grids, to try and help bring my emotional state into balance. I meditated each day with the crystals too, and did breathing techniques to try and relax my nervous system whilst holding crystals in my hand. Doing this regularly helped me focus on something that wasn’t hurting or upsetting me.
With an eagerness to go back to the metaphysical store, I went and this time spent a long time in their looking at all the beautiful items they had. They had books on past lives, tarot, becoming psychic and much more. I decided to buy a couple more crystals but also a couple of books too.
From reading the past life book, things started to make sense on why things happen, and the patterns that we can inherit into the current life too from our past lives. I couldn’t get enough of reading about past lives and spirituality. I wanted to gain so much knowledge on these subjects to really understand the deep messages in it.
I spent many years reading and learning as much as I could, it took me out of my world of sadness into one of bliss and joy. The next part I wanted to understand was why is there so much disease and pain in life, so I read lots of holistic health books on diet, exercise & vitamins. I thought about becoming a diet & fitness practitioner, but it didn’t real the right fit for me.
I was looking for a quick fix to my health problems, and tried so many things but to no avail. There was too much stuff about how to heal this and how to cure that. It overwhelmed me and got me stressed out.
With seeing no improvement in my physical state, it made me angry, upset and worried. I couldn’t express verbally my feelings, I kept them bottled up. I then read an article online on how writing is a great release to get out how you feel.
From then I began journalling my thoughts and feelings, and did feel an improvement to how I felt. I continued it daily for many years and began writing poetry with how I was feeling, which focused me and my thoughts.
After writing poetry for a while I wanted to see if I could write poems about various topics, so each day I would write a little bit, then the next day a bit more, until eventually I would write an entire poem. It took a few days, sometimes a week but I kept writing.
One day I thought “what if I started writing poetry about spirituality? So I did and began writing what I knew about crystals, past lives, tarot, chakra’s & much more. I found that it didn’t take me a few days to write these poems like previously, but only a few hours to create them. I felt like writing was my purpose in life, and that I had found my calling.
From the 1st poem I wrote, idea’s kept coming to me and I decided to write a book. This wasn’t an easy decision to make, as I was so worried what people would think of it, but I managed to have a bit of confidence and get it published. My book features 17 spiritual poems, but I didn’t want my book to have just poems in, so I decided to add pages to write affirmations, prayers, goals, gratitude lists, spiritual shapes to colour in, plus I have written tips so that people can start writing their own poetry too.
I have written a 2nd book which will be out soon. It is a rhyming affirmation book, containing 60 affirmations helping on subjects from Anxiety & Grief to Strengthening Intuition & Manifestation.
I decided to make the affirmations rhyme, as rhyming helps get the messages into the mind quicker & easier, resulting in better overall results. If you think of a nursery rhyme, you often remember them because of the rhythmic pattern it has. Rhyming also helps with neurodiverse minds too.
My writing journey has another string to it’s bow, as next year I will have a men’s mindfulness mental health book out. I wanted to write a book for men, to help them express how they feel, as often they mask how they are really feeling deep down.
Spirituality and writing has been a real saviour for me, and I hope to help as many people as I can through my writing. I have taken a back seat with doing spiritual readings for now, but in the future I hope to do them again. Instead I offer personalised affirmations & poems which I hope to keep doing forever.